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Journal Entry: Tue Feb 17, 2015, 5:15 PM
I've been pushed down over and over and over again. Every time I feel like the world is ending, and I hate myself for not being better. Not  being right for the job. Not being good enough for someone to choose me as a roommate. Not getting a better grade. Not, not, not.
But, every time I get back up, and you know what? I kick ASS. 
I work so hard. So what if I get rejected again and again? I pick myself up eventually , and I give it my all.
Someone made a comment about me today. "Kate" they said, "You never give less than. 150%." It's true. I put every ounce of energy I have into what I'm doing. 

Maybe I'll never prove those potential roommates or potential bosses wrong. Maybe next time I'll fail again. But I will still give 150% until the day I die. Who knows, maybe next time I'll win.


My new anxiety pills get me high as the sky, so after my meltdown today, I took one, and the next thing I know I was typing this...


I'm so stressed I've been sleep-baking to cope... Help.

  • Mood: Insecure
  • Listening to: Bad 80s break up music
  • Reading: Stuff
  • Watching: Stuff

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JUMBOLA Featured By Owner Jan 24, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Cheers for the Llama...an important part of life
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MaeraSoruai Featured By Owner Jan 4, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
Are you still there?
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AlexisAuer Featured By Owner Jan 4, 2015
Yeah. Putting away Christmas. I'm almost done, sorry. Also, I had an idea. What if Seth demands Milo be released, but he leaves the other two there?
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MaeraSoruai Featured By Owner Jan 4, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
That is a twist I can appreciate. Love it. They probably took Milo because they couldn't tell him apart from Stephan.
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:iconalexisauer:
AlexisAuer Featured By Owner Jan 4, 2015
Nice addition. That's so screwed up, even for Seth.
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MaeraSoruai Featured By Owner Jan 1, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
Still reading our stories. We had one little tidbit where Hannah was actually Rosie's little sister. Amazing plot twist that I completely ignored. We need to bring that and some other things back again.
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AlexisAuer Featured By Owner Jan 1, 2015
Oh yeah, I remember that. We could do that.
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MaeraSoruai Featured By Owner Jan 1, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
Also Hannah's father being an owner of a big cigarette company.
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AlexisAuer Featured By Owner Jan 1, 2015
Yes. Hannah started smoking when she was young, then figured out how bad it was and quit.
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MaeraSoruai Featured By Owner Jan 1, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
This time around Nikki would actually meet Maric's father and see how hard it is for him. Conan would likely drag him before her and Meredith to show him off, then beat him for a minor error.
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AlexisAuer Featured By Owner Jan 1, 2015
I bet that will surprise her. She knows how that is, and it'll be really shocking when she finds out he's going through the same thing or worse.
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MaeraSoruai Featured By Owner Jan 1, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
Yeah. I thought it might add a twist.
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AlexisAuer Featured By Owner Jan 1, 2015
Twists are good. When would this happen?
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MaeraSoruai Featured By Owner Dec 27, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
snowflake.thebookofeveryone.co…

I've been making them for our characters. It's pretty cool.
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AlexisAuer Featured By Owner Dec 27, 2014
That's pretty cool.
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MaeraSoruai Featured By Owner Dec 27, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
The ones I like most are Desirea's and Nikki's. With her original name.
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AlexisAuer Featured By Owner Dec 27, 2014
Very pretty. How do you find these things?
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MaeraSoruai Featured By Owner Dec 24, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
This is the only Youtube video I could find of it.
www.youtube.com/watch?v=qOaNqC…
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AlexisAuer Featured By Owner Dec 24, 2014
Pretty song.
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MaeraSoruai Featured By Owner Dec 23, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
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AlexisAuer Featured By Owner Dec 23, 2014
I couldn't get it to play, but I read the lyrics. Very sad. why are our stories so sad?
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:iconmaerasoruai:
MaeraSoruai Featured By Owner Dec 23, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Because sad stories are beautiful.
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AlexisAuer Featured By Owner Dec 23, 2014
They really are. 
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MaeraSoruai Featured By Owner Dec 23, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
By the way, the name I gave you, Ziona Amerys, could also be Amerys Ziona if you prefer. The order of the names doesn't matter.
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AlexisAuer Featured By Owner Dec 23, 2014
Does it mean something? Sorry that I don't really know how this works...
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