Bounce Back

I've been pushed down over and over and over again. Every time I feel like the world is ending, and I hate myself for not being better. Not  being right for the job. Not being good enough for someone to choose me as a roommate. Not getting a better grade. Not, not, not.
But, every time I get back up, and you know what? I kick ASS. 
I work so hard. So what if I get rejected again and again? I pick myself up eventually , and I give it my all.
Someone made a comment about me today. "Kate" they said, "You never give less than. 150%." It's true. I put every ounce of energy I have into what I'm doing. 

Maybe I'll never prove those potential roommates or potential bosses wrong. Maybe next time I'll fail again. But I will still give 150% until the day I die. Who knows, maybe next time I'll win.


_{My new anxiety pills get me high as the sky, so after my meltdown today, I took one, and the next thing I know I was typing this...}


^{I'm so stressed I've been sleep-baking to cope... Help.}